*WAILS* So I went back and rewatched that scene. For whatever reason, in the center of what looks to be an otherwise mostly-empty notebook, Sam has, “Behold the face of God” written on a page in Enochian. Why did he write it? Why does he carry it with him? Is there any situation in which it would be relevant enough that he’d write it down? Did the writers think about this at all before making it happen?
The scene made it clear that he didn’t write it down at that time, but he definitely wrote it at some point before. I was talking to @eruthiawenluin, who mentioned that Sam said he couldn’t read the Enochian that Abaddon’s demons etched into the Impala in s9, so I don’t know what the canon status of Sam’s Enochian knowledge is.
BUT my headcanons and musings are not accountable to canon, so consider:
(In other words, I like to make myself sad)
Sam reaching out to press his hand scar whenever he hears Enochian because it always brings back memories of Lucifer and Michael’s taunts.
Sam going to Castiel to get him to teach him some Enochian–simple stuff; beautiful stuff. Sam asking questions about heaven and God.
The possibility that, if Sam is fluent, he has spoken Enochian at least five times longer than he has spoken English.
Sam being excited to learn scriptures and angelic hymns and chants in Enochian because it made him feel closer to his faith.
Sam coming out of the Cage in s6 completely fluent in Enochian but losing and/or blocking the knowledge because it brought too much pain–memories of centuries of torture.
Alternatively, the likelihood that he lost his language knowledge when Castiel dulled the trauma of his Cage memories in 7.17; The memories are still there, but they’re dulled as if by age, making his language skills spotty at best.
Sam retained the knowledge but doesn’t like to think about it at all. Enochian only evokes pain for him.
The possibility that Sam knows only degrading phrases in Enochian because those were the only kinds of words Michael or Lucifer ever directed at him.
Reading the Enochian spell after each trial was hard. He knew the words and knew how to pronounce them, but the pain that came with the completion of a Trial was as much mental as it was physical; each time he spoke the spell, he recalled the Cage.
Gadreel’s possession left him with refreshed knowledge of Enochian, and that’s yet another reason why he finds it difficult to use the language.
Sam writing down the phrases Castiel taught him because he so desperately wants to associate the language with good things. Maybe one of them was the one he wrote in that book. Maybe he wrote it over and over when he thought he was receiving divine visions, because he hoped so much that he might one day behold the God in whom he had faith.
Ok hold up for one second, let me take a short break from sowing the
ground with salt to ask: did anyone else notice how when Tony says
something like “Pepper and I are …” Steve “conceal-don’t-feel” Rogers perks right the fuck up and goes “PREGNANT??!!?!”
I say this in utter seriousness*: in the .5 seconds between “Pepper and I” and “are on a break,”
the only thoughts in Captain America’s head are “BABY! BABY! OH
BOY! UNCLE STEVE! OH BOY!” Like good lord this man is so sad and
lonely that he lights up like a goddamn lava lamp at the mere prospect of being in proximity to family life. He parents the fuck out of
Scarlet Witch, he attempts to parent Spider-Lad while the kid is attacking him, he would probably parent
Iron Man if Tony would just hold still long enough. There is literally no
one on earth more prepared than Steve Rogers to bring someone out for
ice cream after they don’t make the football team and tell them that
he’ll always be proud of them no matter what. Captain America has got this, his body
is ready, he will be unconditionally loving and supportive to the entire
state of Minnesota, he will diaper Yellowstone National Park, he is
fully prepared to help Guam with its math homework.
If the answer to Steve’s question had been, “Yes, pregnant!” Civil War
would not have happened, because Steve would have brokered a peace in under 20 minutes, and the rest of the movie would have been
nothing but Captain America shopping for
onesies while Falcon and the Winter Soldier give each other nuclear
wedgies and Iron Man finally gets himself some therapy. Unfortunately, as there is no baby, Tony remains a man-sized pile of emotional rubble,
Bucky ends up armless and frozen instead of enjoying hours of playing punch
buggy with Sam while Cap threatens to TURN THIS CAR AROUND RIGHT
NOW, and Steve has no adorable little StarkNugget to bounce on his knee and teach
to play stickball and give all of the love in his giant patriotic heart.
In conclusion: everything is terrible, and T’Challa needs to buy Steve
an incredibly expensive Wakandan puppy or something before he starts
attempting to nurture that giant panther statue in the front yard.
*I am not actually utterly serious.
ACTUAL CACKLING FOR REASONS THAT I’M SURE YOU UNDERSTAND
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